Just Reading

There I was just reading. Just taking the words into my head and trying to figure out what I wanted to know from, what I was reading. It was as simple as that. Line after line, the sentences would start to shape up a beautiful story. Paragraph by paragraph, I was following into the mind of the writer, what she thought and understood about life. I kept silent after some lines.

It was enough, somehow, the words stopped making any sense and I had no reason to continue. Often, this kind of things happen, when I start reading something.  What I am writing now is also senseless and you can actually stop reading but even that makes no sense. 

So lets stop even expressing, I say to myself. But I can't stop that, that is something which makes me live. I live to express. Not only me but each individual live to express his/her feelings and thoughts. Any person not expressing themselves through any medium is some how do not exist. But expression is not always words, it ever thing you do that says something about you. It has to be you and not anyone else. 

Simple as that, just reading lines. 

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Why Life is Beautiful

If you ponder upon the facts of life and the reason for its existence, you will find that life is beautiful. I cannot answer why it was created nor why it had to exist. Cause answering it, is not possible. The more you go into depth of this question, the more you get lost.

I try looking at life from a perspective which doesn't answer my questions but allows me to enjoy life and appreciate the truth of it.

When a tree is planted, it grows slowly and strongly with the time. Its not the time which defines the change. It is time which is defined by the change. A tree doesn't grow only upwards, but grows equally deep into the depth of the earth. In both direction, it flourishes itself. Tree in it self is not a single life, it is a complete Eco-system. A tree in itself is the total explanation of life. Therefore, we call tree "A wisdom of life."

As the leaves go green and the fruits ripen up, it is the most beautiful thing you can ever get the glimpse of. But as the leaves fall apart and the fruits are no more there, the tree looks sad and lonely, but it isn't. It is a phase through which the tree has to pass before it can flourish again, it is the time of wait and time of rest for the tree. It is the fundamental of life, the ups and downs. Happiness and pain are the two things that has to exist for each others existence. One cannot survive without other.

If a tree with the flowers and fruits and leaves are beautiful, so is the tree with only branches. We need to change our perspective to see life, only then you can find it joyful and start enjoying it. If day is bright and the night is dark, we need to accept and learn to enjoy dark as much as bright. Life is the flow of the change. Its the process to enjoy and not try finding meanings of it, because a meaning is the perception of human mind which is different for each individual. Meaning tries to clam people with false reasoning. One has to be strong to understand the life. The weaker you are, the more wrong reasons you create to live.

Little Happiness

Just downloaded one statistical code to run in SAS. It was the simplest code of all. Just read the data from the file and store in the data set of the SAS. After pondering over it for a long time, I could not understand one particular line of the code: didn't know what it was, so went thinking about it.

After hours of digging, I understood that the code, just created an automatic variable, which was incremented each time and kept storing its value in each new record. After that, I tried my own tiny experiment. I created a simple array of data from 1 to 100 with one column and 100 records. I implemented a simple 'if' statement that did the trick.

With tired fingers, I hit F3 to run. It worked. You can only imagine how happy I was, the internal satisfaction that I received was more than any thing else. It brought a big smile in my face and in my heart. phew!! I said and looked at the code. Its was only 4 lines. It was neither a joke nor any love message. It was an expression my intelligence. 

That was my little happiness. Don't know why we all get so satisfied with these things. But I cannot deny the amount of satisfaction we get.  

What I have been writing about.

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So far I have been blogging and I just stumbled upon this site http://www.wordle.net which displays in tag cloud from what you have been writing about. I just checked mine and I found THINK is highlighted. After that I just said to myself..hmm I have been true to my blog. :)

 

New Communication

I have got nothing to share, neither anything to tell. I have no thoughts neither any views. I have no reason neither any goals. Here I am, just giving my fingers an exercise of a day. Fingers moving up and down, eyes following the moving cursor in my laptop and brain pumping a THINK tank. Lets blog, I say to myself.

Haven't been writing anything. Not cause I am busy or that I have no time. I simple have nothing to blog.

With the SOCIAL MEDIA hype and all people going nuts. I am just lost. People these days want to say a lot in just few words.... I guess we call it tweeting. The words are getting shorter and the feelings are getting lost... That is what I feel most of the time but may be its a changing world. A new world, where communication is something entirely different.

This made be remember one term its called "NewSpeak", a term used by George Orwell in his book 1984. If you have read the book or know about it. What this New Speak, is something similar to the New Changing ways of communication. Its language where the words have been deleted and emotion has been ripped away from the words so that when people communicate they are exactly telling each other what they want to. Though the main aim of "NewSpeak " was discouraging INDIVIDUALISM. I don't know how far this new communication of ours are going forward. I can only think.

May be I am wrong in this but its my thoughts. A changing ways of communication.

Just a thought.

My mind is going numb these days. With emptiness and nothing in me, I am staring at the sky and I find nothing to think about, neither talk about, neither write about. I am just in silence, I guess. No more tales to tell.

So I am remembering my childhood again. Every time I see a child, I find myself wondering about my own childhood. The innocence takes my breath away and I look upon their eyes, eyes full of hope. But as I pose myself to capture their innocence into my camera, I ask myself why am I doing it? Why are so many children's photos clicked and exhibited. Even I have done so often. What does a child photo signify?

After much thinking and pondering, I think its the innocence that is captured in the child's eye. An innocence's which slowly seems to vanish with the age. An innocence  which gets lost into the confusion of choices to be made. Any thing precious has a tendency of being captured. So is the child's smile and stare and their inquisitive questions.

I am thinking if I still possess  those innocence in me. I go deep into my minds and start to think. May be yes, may be no. All these feelings seem to take me far away into my own dream land.